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When I am writing this blog on Tuesday 22nd September, I have doubts and negative things on my mind, mainly because of the pressure I put myself under. Like yesterday, I commented on a blog recently, my whole point of that was that I see myself being very ambitious and setting my goals to be high up. I want to sound positive but it isn’t working out that way YET. I have had interviews with likes of CLIC Sargent, Hampton Court Palace, Economist Group, Imperial War Museum which are big names over the last 12 months, I wouldn’t go far as to say they were global but that isn’t the point.
Just yesterday, I had an interview in a department in Windsor Castle, I was looking forward to the interview very much and I had a long time to prepare what I was going to say so on the day itself I was just wanted to enjoy the opportunity of viewing Windsor Castle because I knew that despite my best effects I can’t guarantee that it will get me the job there. That is what I think people are disillusioned about, we can’t in life guarantee or make promises that the next or current job we have is going to be a job for life or supposedly we can’t guarantee that we would have a baby after we get married. It is just those things that either looks myself or other people look stupid at the end of the day.
For myself particularly, I want to succeed just like lots of us do but it’s just not going my way at this point in time. I just feel although the opportunity I went for was a fantastic position and probably the best job they could put me in, in terms of my skills and experience set. I just have a bad feeling that they are not going to take me further. I don’t like saying that, I think they are looking for someone with broader experience than I have such as working in a team which I haven’t got because my experience is just doing tasks independently.
For me not getting the job I went for would be by far the biggest failure of my career of not getting the job I would be most good at and it is going to break my heart just like Anne Boleyn or Catherine of Aragon not having a male heir to the throne. I’m going to be bitterly disappointed and probably cry like a baby afterwards once I heard I’m going to be unsuccessful, I don’t have my hopes up at all. I haven’t heard yet as of the 22nd September, the day after my interview.
I’m not going to give up trying in the future to work for the Royal Household but with my limited skills and experience, I’m not sure what else I would be good at so I’m not sure despite how much I love what the company does and my active interest in English monarchs and everything, that is why it would be great to work there but the frustrating thing is I don’t know what else I am good at that I can offer and plus I don’t have any contacts there. I think if one of the representatives would read this blog, they will feel sorry because they see I am passionate about the organisation but that can get you so far so I don’t know what the future will hold for me if it turns out that way.
I just want to say goodbye to yesterday and plan for tomorrow.
I just want to finish with a music video by U2